Tristan is now a week old. He hasn't slept in his crib yet. He sleeps on my chest every night. I don't mind I love the bonding I get with him. I think part of the reason is that the crib is in Ray's room and the couple of times we have tried to lay him in there he cries. I am afraid of waking Ray up. He was woke up a few nights ago and was highly emotional. I feel so bad for him. His life has been completely turned upside down. I feel like I am neglecting him when I am feeding Tristan. He wants to snuggle up next to me and can't because Tristan is on the boob. I am trying to make sure he has alone time with me every day but don't always get to. Especially yesterday because on Tuesday's and Thursday's I am in class until 5 so I don't get home until 5:30 and his bed time is 8pm. As soon as I got home it was time to feed Tristan and that is an hour to an hour and a half. So it was 7pm by the time I was done with that Ray was on the potty. That is a half hour process for that. He went poop and pee, YAY!! So it was 7:45 by the time we were done with rewards and changing into Jammies. He had only 15 minutes with me to snuggle and I just feel so guilty.
I am doing the best I can with both of them and just have to trust that Ray will be just fine. Thankfully I am not doing this all alone. I made my first successful trip to Target on Monday all by my self with both boys. Wow is that a stressful experience. Ray was so good. I am so glad he is not one of those horrible children in the stores who melts down with a no. He hasn't been given a toy every time we go to the store so he doesn't beg for toys or candy. Working at Target, I have seen all types of meltdowns. I can't believe parents let their children act this way. I just want to bitch slap the parents. The worst part of it all is they usually give in to the screaming child. If I wasn't working and at risk of being fired I would tell them way to reinforce the tantrum. You just taught your child: if I just throw a fit then mommy and daddy will give me what I want. IDIOTS. We wonder why society is going to hell in a hand basket. I am not afraid of giving Ray a time out in public. You can make any spot a time out spot.
School is going really well. I should be spending more time on Statistics. I gave up last night on the homework. I will do it anyway because there is a test on the material next week. I got a 93% on my Business Law paper and am getting an A in that class.
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